Have you ever had a season of your life that the best word to describe it is sombering? Dull, stagnant, mundane, and just overall blah. And right when you think things are about to turn around for the better, one final tribulation meets you face to face. It sees you, exhausted, desperate, torn, trying its best to make sure this sombering season doesn’t turn full of life.
What do you do?
This season is all too real to me. And to be honest what I want to do is go cuddle my dogs with chocolate in one hand and a glass of wine in the other while watching Grey’s Anatomy on repeat and sobbing from the unrealistic drama between characters that I become attached to. To be truly honest, that might have happened, minus the Grey’s Anatomy.
It has been a season that has tested everything that I have learned over the last year. Giving me an opportunity to walk out in the things I worked so hard on with the Lord. And let me tell you it’s not easy. Dying to self and trusting the Lord when things logically make zero sense is no easy task, and if I am being honest, I have fallen short of these things, multiple times. It’s frustrating. However, during these seasons the Lord tends to speak to me through scriptures, songs, movies, art, nature, and conversations on a different level. Things stir in me deeper, and seem so profound. I could stare at the same river for hours and the Lord will continue to romance me. Showing me more of Him, more of the truth. Showering me with grace upon grace. Experiencing His presence in an intimate way. It is simple and said often, but the Lord is SO good!
I keep finding myself meditating on Psalm 145. Reading over and over again, and leaving with a better understanding of my Father, and His plan for His children. He upholds me when I am falling and raises me up. He is righteous in all His ways and kind in all His works. He is near to me when I call on him. He is gracious, merciful, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love. His love is literally unlike anything else. It is so profound, peaceful, and comforting. And even when I am in these sombering seasons He is right there, never forsaking me. He is waiting for me to completely let go of every little things that is dragging me down so he can romance me.
