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What most people want.

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But it is a concept that has been poking at my exposed raw spots.

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For the first time in my life I have been asking the Lord to stop giving it to me.

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It seems too much to handle. 

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Like waves in the sea that never seem to stop crashing and I can't find my way out of the break zone.

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Fatigued from trying to stay afloat among the waves. 

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People to love.

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People to share the love I so long for.

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People to welcome into my life.

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People to say goodbye to.

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Twist and turns.

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Of losing control.

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Please stop giving it to me I scream to the Lord.

Be still.

Says the Lord.

Let me give you vision to the more I am giving you.

Let me fulfill the promises I have given you.

Let me show you

Redemption.

Love.

Healing.

Hope.

Let me be the rock that keeps you up away from the mud and mire.

I want to give you more, Sara.

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The very thing that seems so daunting, but the very thing that will give me more of the one thing I truly yearn for.

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Intimacy with my Heavenly Father.

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It's a love hate relationship.

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My hands are open.